CNY Greeting

Dear blog,

Morning morning~ It's forth day of CNY. A little bit late greetings from me.

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Have a prosperous Water Dragon Year A Head!!!

Basically, this year i'm celebrating this festival in KL. Not going back to Ipoh. And i'm starting my work on the third day of CNY. So, which means i'm not receiving much Ang Pow YET! Ha.. Perhaps now have joining the career world, not being bother of getting the ang pow that much like while in the childhood times. This is how my perception had changes. Maybe i really realize how every single dollar are to be earned. And make me treasure the value of everything (am i?)! Anyway, anyhow and anywhere, please take good care of yourself my friends and families out there! Do not eat too much till growing vertically. Drink more water to avoid yourself from getting sick. And DO SLEEP EARLY so you can wake up to work for tomorrow!!! Hahaha~


Love

It's time to Stop.

Dear blog,

How should I move on when i keep thinking about the past? Knowing the truth now, I guess is the time to press the stop button. No longer the pause. Though kind of guess it, but some time I tend to run away from the truth. Made up my mind now. In order for me to move on, i should bless it and divert my attention maybe. Anyhow, it's time for me to seal away the feeling and make another opening.


Love

A Pretender

Dear blog,

Been wondering, how many of us are hiding behind our very own mask? I honestly admit here. Not to say that I'm not being 'me' all the time, it is just that there are times that i actually sealing away my true feelings because of the uncertain feeling that i sense. Yeah, i never ask, and you never tell. That's what happen all the time. End up hurting people indirectly without realizing how much their importance is!

Behind every smiles, there are pains. Behind every joys, there are suffers. behind every loves, there will be jealousy. There will always have sacrifices. That's what i believe in!

When i'm putting the smile on my face, how many of you could actually tell how much pains and worries are there? Compressing and sealing away all my true feelings sometimes are hurting me so deeply without you realizing. I'm not sharing it, because i know only me can heal myself. No one except myself.

There are times when i wish to run away from all the pain, and be a carefree person without anything to be worried. Rather than on the mask and become the person that everyone want me to be.


Love

New or Old Policies?

Dear blog,

Yesterday got an email regarding the violence of the non-working activities during the working hours. Well, as far as i concern about, i do think that this policies is no longer new to the organization. It is just that when the organization implement this new policies, how many of the employees are really obeying the rule? Okay, i admit that i do not follow it now because of the lenient monitoring by the management.

Basically, i do not see this clause in the SOP. But I do respect the company properties la. It is just some times too free till nothing to do. All I'm facing the dekstop. So eventually surfing to some other non-work related things. Well, honestly saying, if the organization really wish to take serious action regarding this matter. I purpose to them to cut off the internet services and just comply the intranet. Isn't that much more effective way to restrict the violence of internet usage? Hmm... I guess this merely an issue raise by the auditor in utilizing the office properties. That's it!

Okay, resume back to work. Update here soon. I guess would be the CNY. Have a blast everyone!


Love

When me not being me

Dear blog,

Too much uncertainty, and i'm not behaving like myself.
How should i handle the future that hold so much of uncertainty?

Love

Like a stranger

Dear blog,

We used to be so close to each other,

but now i feel like stranger.

When i saw you,

there are million words that i wish to utter.

But the situation concur by the silence.

Been wondering how could this relationship become so fragile?

Realizing the gap between us are growing,

but neither of us make the move

to break the invisible wall between us.

How should i react whenever i see you?

Act like a stranger?

Or being the person that so dear to you?

Love

The Dragon's gathering

Dear blog,

A little bit late posting here. But it better late than never though. Meeting the dragons on Wednesday. As usual, gathering never run away from eating + some gossiping sharing. Hahaha... Heard a lot of news and their current situation. Time flies and soon enough they will going back for CNY celebration. After this continue fighting in career. And soon enough will be receiving some red bombs i guess. It is just the time will never stop for us. Hmm... Really need to plan plan plan for my upcoming activities! Okay, the pictures of the dragons is here.

Decor in Time Square

Hilda and Grace~

Me with plum tree~

Da n me

Lastly

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The Dragons of 88

Love

The miserable feeling

Dear blog,

I don't like the feeling and emotion that im having right now. It's make me unable to concentrate on my task. Keep on playing in my mind, really wanted to have the answer for all my inquiries, and chase away all the uncertainty that make me feel miserable. Honestly, I really wish to know the answer. But im scare though of the answer that i''ll get in the end. It is just i don satisfied! How i wish if i could get the answer i want and make me feel secure. Somehow it dint. Only if he know how i really feel and can respond to me. Though I guess he somewhat know how i felt, and told me distance and time as obstacle. I know there are actually another person in his heart too, but by allowing me to venture to his world has gave me some courage to pursue my feeling. I just know that in the end, i'll be the one that hurt most as i hitting the wall even though i realize the wall just right in front of me. I actually been wondering why he treating me this way. I'm trying to resist myself, but i give in eventually just because i couldn't resist my own feeling. Should i confront with him o how i really feel and get the answer right away? Or let this feeling remain unrevealed till i regret it some day. Im really don like the feeling of uncertain and incomplete. How i wish he would call me and tell me how he feel, and give a solution to me. I rather he stop me now, than making my heart pondering without the shore that i could land.

It's been long I din't have this kind of feeling. And now it appear again. Perhaps there are still a part of myself wanted to love someone and being love.


love

Meeting the Dragon GF

Dear blog,

It's Saturday fever! Nah.. Just another nothing-to-do day for me. Yes. No activity. Ever since i join the career world, my life has change to a little bit bored + passionless. And I had always realize i should make the changes to get myself back to the way i used to be. Just somehow too much 'obstacle' that restrain me. Somehow I still got some friends to hang out with.

Yes, meeting my GF yesterday for dinner. Actually i was going to ask her out today, who knows she made the move 1st, and meet for dinner yesterday. Hahaha... Kind of regular meeting with her as compare to others Uni-mates. Things went just nice when we get ourselves out of 'bored' work with a little bit of gossips and sharing. Okay, i know i should meet up with others too. Perhaps some other time till i arrange for it. Hah...

Nice decor at Pavilion, KL

Me

Dragons in the house!

Okay, till here

Love

Rat?

Dear blog,

Been a week i guess not login here. Kind of busy with more workload as one of my colleague, ex-colleague resign for better offer. Take over her work and it is so much and rush work. Need to take some time to familiar myself with it now. And guess what, yesterday was my very first OT with the company. Ever since i leave that firm, never work more than 1745 till yesterday. Or maybe is me, who a little bit slow in adapting with the work.

And today, got a call from my BF, who kind of rescue me from the unscheduled delay of LRT. For the very first time after 1 year++, not visiting the night market. Finally got my foot there and experience the asam laksa. A little disappointed though.

Oh, kinda stray away from the topic that i wish to share. Did you guys realize that the RAT now are in the same size of CAT? Although there is only 1 alphabet different. Okay, i know it's not any new to you. But i almost mistook the CAT as RAT just now. Going to scream, but when i look closely, it was a CAT! And why is the cat so tiny, and dirty like rat? OMG... isn't the rat is big portion enough for the cat? Or should blame on Whiskey on making the so healthy and break the mother nature? Hmm.. moment of thoughts here. I remember seeing an advert too. Where the rat was dancing in front of the cat, and ignore by it. This is how the world had change without our permission. From a very basic things, we make it complicated and came to forgot the basic.

Okay, till here...

Love

Happy 2012~

Dear blog,

A little bit late to wish, but it's better late than never right. So, i'm sincerely wish everyone to had a great 2012. Stay happy and healthy! 

Basically, there isn't much resolution for this year. Or is there any? haha.. My resolution basically come spontaneously, whenever i have a small target, i would try to achieve it without setting a specific timeline. Sound like complicated right? Ha, whatever...

Anyhow, been listening to so many people spelling out the happy new year resolution, one of the funny phrase i heard is '把你自己送出去 (present yourself to others)'. I guess this phrase is to deliver to those single individuals out there. So, to all my friends out there, do try to get some one by this year. So you wouldn't be 'lonely' when seeing the couples. Hahaha...

Lastly, hope you guys are enjoying the new year celebration! Even though not having to watch the fireworks, or being with the special one. But remember, every moment you spent, are meant something! Just live to the fullest guys!

Happy 2012~

Love