tire...

Thought that i could have some rest after this, who knows things just keep on come. Rest just start to stay far away from me... I am so tire...

If i could chose

Recall back the decision I made is it right or wrong? Perhaps at that time you ask me, I should say No! This may release you and me now. Whenever i saw the message or call, I am wondering should I answer it. You should know that those times are past tense, and we should move on with the current life. I am doing really great with my current life. Just hope that don’t waste any of your time on me. What you doing now will just made me build bigger barriers among us. We do have great memories, but now I didn’t see it as great. I am afraid. We can be friend, now is just not the time yet. You remember you ask me am I scared of you? Honestly, my answer is Yes. I am afraid of the hope that you put on me. It is like a burden for me. I enjoy my life now, with no restriction and limits. I admit that I am selfish when choose to leave you, but I never regret it. I love myself more than others. You made a great guy, but we met at the wrong timing. I am not the girl that you should be wasting your time on. I am a lot deeper than you can imagine. You will meet you right person, but it is just not me. If only I could turn back the time, I wish all this never happen. And you don’t have to waste your time on me.

Written on 18 February 2010; 2345

shocking news

Today was Valentine’s Day and the first day of Chinese New Year. Happy Valentine to all the couples in the world and Happy CNY too!
I got a shocking new today. It is really surprise me when I heard it. It is still a little unbelievable for me because I do not think this thing should happen on my friend. But, we can’t judge a book by its cover though. All this while, I never thought my friend couple with the same sex person. I did suspect a little when I saw the photos of them, but never do I ask about it. Finally, the truth is reveal now and I think it is really a waste. How could this happen on my friend? It doesn’t look like they will! All this while, my friend just never mentions that they prefer the same sex. My friend just doesn’t look like will done this thing. Hmm, at this wonderful night, it surely a shocking new I receive. Hopefully this new will not affect my view on my friend.

Written on 15 February 2010: 0219

Island trip

Today went 2 island with my roommates. It has been a while I haven’t go for snorkeling since the last trip with my form6 classmate in Redang island. Really a wonderful trip solely for the 11 girls who spend 3 days 2 nights there. Miss the moment though. This time we went to 2 island that was quite famous in Sabah-Manukan Island and Sapi Island. After 1 and half year in Sabah, finally made my first trip to island. i have waited for so long. It is quite enjoyable actually, just see so much of death corals-pollution. anyhow, looking forward to my next trip. Hoping to have a diving licence so i can go to Sipadan Island!

Thanks to Mike, our guide for the day, made me manage to see Nemo.

Written on 13February 2010

Class before CNY

Few more minutes to go will start my final class before CNY. Just cant wait for the class to end and the arriving of tomorrow. Three days later will be the CNY and valentines day! What a great celebration for those couples. Receiving Ang Pow and gifts at the same time.
Cant wait for tomorrow for all my plan and trips shall begins. Though not with my family, but a is a great escape from hostel! having trips with my roommates will be another joyful experience!
However, CNY will be accompany be tans of assignments and laptop. Just another busy yet relaxing weeks to go...

Happy CNY!!!